(Don’t read if you don’t want to risk your day being ruined with a depressing mental image.)

I just got connected to good, proper Internet. For over a year I’ve been on a shitty wireless plan that limited me to 10GB a month and was constantly dropping out. And now, I’m connected to cable. Cable. I’m whizzing away. I do so much on the Internet and I was constantly getting tripped up, and now I’m basically free to do whatever I could possibly want. I should be so happy. I was happy, for a little while.

Then literally the first thing I see with my new Internet is a friend linking me to a story about how three 14-year-olds girls set fire to another one, and how she died.

Christ.

Sometimes I have no idea why I’m still friends with him. He honestly just never considers anyone but himself. He never thought, “Hey, I wonder if this person might not want to read about this horrifically detailed experience”. Just- nope, link without warning about what it is.

So now I really can’t find it in me to be excited about this thing, which I’ve been waiting for for so long, which I’ve been saving for and working towards. I feel like shit.

Edit: hahaha ok re-reading this it sounds like it boils down to “Bawww some girl died and now I can’t enjoy my cable internet :C”. No, the issue is that now I’ve read it and I can’t stop thinking about it and how evocative the imagery was and how unfair and cruel it is that these three girls can do this and that we live in a society that produces children who set fire to other children, I just.
Sweet Christ, fuck the Internet, I just want to go to bed and sleep for days.
And this guy just doesn’t give a shit about that, really.